me, still awake at this time.
assignment is due today, and i’m 20% done. Great!
what more to go? just a super big size book, a book chapter, 4 safety standards, and electronic sources to read.
ok, no sleep today…
if you haven’t heard me yelling, nagging, begging, screaming, crying, laughing, yawning, mumbling, or any sort of voice come out of my mouth, YOU ARE NOT DEAF!!
Thanks to whoever spread the virus to me, thanks to whoever made my days so stressfull and tiring physically and mentally, thanks to a bunch of students that i have to teach for 6 hours of experiment, and thanks to my carelessness in taking care of myself:
I HAVE NOW COMPLETELY LOST MY VOICE!!!
so enjoy your peacefull days for a while… when my voice comes back, i am sure you are going to miss these peacefull days… haha…
i feel like a dumb. i have many things to say and i just could not say it.
my housemate has been teasing me a lot because of this. for that, i’ve given her my middle finger twice today, and she said,"yeah… that says a thousand of words".. haha.. you got it, girl!
speaking of not having my voice, i realize that there are many other things that i want to say, which i’ve never really said it even though i could. let say, i really want to say:
1. i love my parents
2. i love my siblings too, including my extended family too
3. i really really hate a coward -whom i don’t know, btw- who have screwed up my life lately
4. i hope you (yeah, you!) will fight for me if you really want me
5. i am glad to have my friends who have been here with me through my happiness or sadness, healthy or sick… don’t get it wrong, we are not in a middle of a wedding ceremony…
… and still… many many more…
oh, before i forget, i wanna be a suppergirl and throw a shark to person number 3!
What ravages of spirit
Conjured this temptuous rage
Created you a monster
Broken by the rules of love
And fate has led you through it
You do what you have to do
And fate has led you through it
You do what you have to do …
And I have the sense to recognize that
I don’t know how to let you go
Every moment marked
With apparitions of your soul
I’m ever swiftly moving
Trying to escape this desire
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
But I have the sense to recognize
That I don’t know how
To let you go
I don’t know how
To let you go
A glowing ember
Burning hot
Burning slow
Deep within I’m shaken by the violence
Of existing for only you
I know I can’t be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can’t be with you
I do what I have to do
And I have sense to recognize but
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t know how to let you go
things come and go… and they are not really within our control.
my life has been so hectic lately. everything just seems to go so wrong.
i lose many things i really want. i lose a thing that i’ve been keeping and admiring for long, and i feel life is unfair…
sometimes, i don’t understand why there are people who just seem to hate seeing my life moving on in peace. don’t waste your time, just mind your own business. but thanks anyway, you’ve made my life more exciting…
when i look around, again, perhaps life isn’t that unfair… thanks for those who have been there for me, i couldn’t really ask for more.
be brave…. yes, i will… try…
there are many shameless people around. in one or other way, strangely, they can get their way around without many people noticing their back route.
not fair….
no, i don’t like when ppl put so much expectation on me, and look me down when i could not achieve what they expect me to achieve.
yes, they may think i am a no brainer. maybe i am, or maybe i just happened to choose the wrong path.
can i turn back time?
