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to what extent can you take an irritating person? are you a kind who can take it easy, take it as a joke, be upset for a while but then totally forget it after a dinner, or you are a kind who can be so influenced, dragged away, get depressed, and would make a drastic decision from it?

being too impatience and emotionally unstable is bad. being too patient can be disastrous too. so what is the best limit to how much we should tolerate others?

me, now @ reaching 70% of tolerance limit towards impatience people

i remember reading a post with the same topic in my friend’s blog about a year ago… then, our life was still completely normal… and we made judgements of people who have changed so much within a very short time. we questioned their thoughts, actions…. we accused them for being inconsistent, insane, untrue about themselves…

and here we are… in a completely opposite side of the road, by this i mean, in the same side as those people we talked about then. and if those people have changed for the better, we are unsure if ours are too. and i often questioned myself, or more exactly, ensured myself that everything is gonna be alright, that it’s just another path of life that we have to go through, and we will eventually reach that point where we say "yes, those changes are for the better".

a year ago, when we were still in the same land, same old long stable relationship, and felt so secure about ourselves, we saw people from our very small frame of our life-glasses. and recently, with all the drastic changes happened to our lifes, we agreed that anything can happen…. people change… and no accusation shall be made out of it. these fears we have about our life, i think it’s normal… nothing is definite, and it’s perfectly alright to be afraid as long as it doesn’t take us down for so long… i’m not only telling you, i’m telling myself here….and though we still can’t see the end of the road, one thing for sure, these changes have made us a little more mature people.

to my dearest friend: i miss you!

I decided to add a new category in my blog: the last time I did something for the first time… thought it would be interesting to record my new experiences here

ok, lets start it:

last time: yesterday, 10 feb 07
i did: watched Calonarang @ Esplanade Theatre

Calonarang: heard about it a lot when i was in Bali, but have never seen it since it was so mystical back there… ppl said that in Bali, the dance is accompanied by supranatural battle… and they said you are not supposed to leave the show until it is completely finished, otherwise bad things will happen to you… so it’s rather scary =(   so when i heard that they are performing it here, pure art, i was interested to see… it was great, though i feel that some of the balinese dancers aren’t that fantastic.. have seen better dancers before… but as overall, a bravo!

some things are better left unknown. the power of curiousity, it kills the cat, they say… maybe it’s really true. let alone the truth that comes by itself, painful enough… added myself trying to dig somemore is as good as digging my own grave, coz i may not be able to take them all. so ask myself: am i ready? my answer: i am not, that curiosity of mine has several times put me in a rollercoaster of life. and thanks to my wild imagination and poor reasoning ability that things got even worse. and i am not ready yet for it to come again. and i now choose to close one eye…

i’m broke!
and my list of things to buy seems keep blowing up, more and more… sigh…

i just realized i’ve spent waaaaay too much from what i could afford from my income. in need of new source of money… any part time job for me? something like: paid at least $100 per hour for watching tv and sleeping? mm… i’m fine with food tasting too, but i charge additional fee for body slimming…

any taker?

ok, as i promised, let me try to write what the talk says…
anyway, there’s a book on this. check it out!

How do you know if he is a jerk?

we all have flaws. we all act like a jerk at some point in time. are we jerks?
a jerk is someone who… is a very difficult partner, and persistently refuse to change. clues:
- too self-centered, selfish, attention seeking
- lack of emotional control or no emotion at all
- does not apologise, does not resolve conflict, does not communicate, does not open up
- lies, cheats, abusive, or too dependent on you
- pessimistic, possessive
- obsessive compulsive behavior

upcoming course in CHFE, next wednesday, 5-7 pm, "How to avoid marrying a jerk?"
hmmm… sounds like a very useful topic, indeed… stay tuned for my write up on the session

- no wonder our research is going nowhere -

Who’s to say
What’s impossible
Well they forgot
This world keeps spinning
And with each new day
I can feel a change in everything
And as the surface breaks reflections fade
But in some ways they remain the same
And as my mind begins to spread its wings
There’s no stopping curiosity

I want to turn the whole thing upside down
I’ll find the things they say just can’t be found
I’ll share this love I find with everyone
We’ll sing and dance to Mother Nature’s songs
I don’t want this feeling to go away

Who’s to say
I can’t do everything
Well I can try
And as I roll along I begin to find
Things aren’t always just what they seem

I want to turn the whole thing upside down
I’ll find the things they say just can’t be found
I’ll share this love I find with everyone
We’ll sing and dance to Mother Nature’s songs
This world keeps spinning and there’s no time to waste
Well it all keeps spinning spinning round and round and

Upside down
Who’s to say what’s impossible and can’t be found
I don’t want this feeling to go away

Please don’t go away
Please don’t go away
Please don’t go away
Is this how it’s supposed to be
Is this how it’s supposed to be

im going to sydney tonite… for four days… and don’t be surprised, i’m not too excited about this trip coz i’ll be travelling all alone… =(
i haven’t even planned where to go… sigh…

anybody in sydney wants to take me around?

i’ve been having recurring dreams lately… not only that they recur in dreams, they recur in reality too… so bad that i’ve reached a stage where i can’t differentiate which one happened in my dream and which one is my real life…

deja vu

good?
no…
though i had an interrupted sleep pattern, i still feel lack of sleep coz my mind is not resting… and i get tired in the day, and very moody too…

and now i am officially mentally ill